I’m so angry, I just don’t know what to do anymore. I have to say something, even if it’s my sad attempt to provoke change or fear into normal people, which I wouldn’t be able to do anyway.

I never considered myself “political.” Not really. I have a point of view like anyone, but I never felt the need to broadcast it. I don’t even talk to my friends about politics. I’ve always felt: why bother? It doesn’t change anything. Thousands of people who take to the streets, even in front of the White House or other government buildings, to protest and demand change have never done anything to make change. At least not in my view. It’s never been the reason for said change.

But now I see it as a need people develop because they get so incredibly angry, they can’t take it anymore. What else is one to do but rant and rave in the street? Lately, I’ve wanted to tear my motherfucking hair out. I felt that way a few days ago when I first heard about Kansas’ bounty-style lawsuits, which allow people who believe they’ve shared a bathroom with a transgender person to sue for “damages” of at least $1,000.

I’ll be honest, since Trump took office, I didn’t think things would get this bad. I mean, I knew it was going to get really, really bad, but I think I underestimated what all his cronies were capable of. America is being brainwashed more than ever before. Maybe some years ago, it was done through talk radio. Now that seems harmless in comparison. But I remember talk radio starting to get the ball rolling. Back then, I didn’t feel threatened. I still thought the majority of people saw all that as the crazy-pants it was. Yes, people were being brainwashed by Q and Trumpers and conspiracy theories, but I thought most sane people knew that those people were a bunch of insane losers.

It’s like many years ago when five or 10 Nazis would stand on a street corner yelling about Hitler with signs protesting Obama or the Jewish-run media, or whatever else was up their ass and on their sick minds. No one really paid attention because we all knew they were nuts.

Now, almost half the country has come to hate all things “liberal.” Not things that make sense to a person with half a brain, but everything—everything normal. This isn’t like Trump’s first term, where I knew he’d win because most of America is disgusting and racist. This is a whole ‘nother kind of hate.

What has sparked this, you might wonder? It’s a kind of tipping point for me. And it’s a tipping point I see occurring among our collective consciousness. Soon, even the most sane and loving people are going to come forward and outlaw all transgender people and stop them from existing, not just trans youth and their parents.

I know Texas is a huge shithole, but what came into my inbox this morning made me want to shoot myself, which I’m sure all the politicians and right-wingers of Texas want for me anyway. I’m not sure I will shoot myself soon, but I’ll think about it after the next time I hear of another trans kid committing suicide.

And I don’t just blame Texas. It’s Kansas, it’s Florida, and it’s Indiana, and more. There are more and more people and states lining up to hate-hate-hate trans people. They won’t be happy until we are all erased from the earth. They don’t care about kids killing themselves, and saying all this on my blog is probably “dangerous” for me, since there’s no such thing as freedom of speech in this country anymore, if there ever was. This will tell you a little bit about that, too.