I can’t believe it’s been over ten days since my opening, and I haven’t posted shit about it. I just haven’t felt like writing much at all. I think it’s a combination of exhaustion, burnout, and disassociation.
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Nearly There!
I meant to write something here for a couple of weeks, but I’ve been too busy and exhausted. I kinda hit a brick wall yesterday, and on my way to the gallery to finish up some stuff for the installation, I had to turn around and come back home. I felt awful.
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I don’t know why I’m up so early. I mean earlier than usual. The clocks went back this morning, so this is extra bad, and I stayed up late last night. I did this on purpose because I’m trying to train my body to stay up late and stop waking up so early so I’ll be able to deal with my show opening. Fail.
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I never talk about music, and there are sad reasons for it. You think I would want to talk about music, being a musician. Or a past musician, rather. Or, once a musician, always a musician? I don’t play for an audience anymore, so it doesn’t feel like I’m one anymore. I don’t really practice. I have a hard time playing for pleasure. Like I said, there are sad reasons for that. But talking about music these days is a touchy subject I try to save for therapy.
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I’m still not painting, yet I’ve been working. Days rush by, and my To-do list is getting smaller, but I can’t seem to get off my ass to paint. It’s really bumming me out. It’s making me feel like a lazy bum. I feel like I used to paint every day. I mean, I did. Maybe I just didn’t have a shitload of other things to do at the same time? I don’t know. Getting the show prepared is all that’s going on right now. I have no time for anything else.
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