Two Finished

I feel like these last two have nothing to do with each other. Well, they don’t. The first one, “The One with the Snake,” I started over a year ago and it just sat on an easel as two circles for the longest time. The circles were dark, one brown, one a dark-blue-green. I hadn’t decided where to go from there, but I did know that I wanted to somehow incorporate a stuffed snake on the outer edge, so I got one from the zoo and turned it inside out. That too sat in my office for a long-ass time.

Slowly, it came to me to add the collar patterns. I knew I was going to paint them darker colors as well before sticking them onto the canvas. They were bright colors of blue, green, red and pink. It wasn’t until months later I had the idea to paint a thin layer of white oil paint over all of it and scratch out lines with a toothpick to reveal the darker colors underneath. I mixed that white with a good amount of Liquin so it would go on slightly transparent, then I had to scratch with the toothpick while it was still wet. Liquin makes the paint dry pretty fast, so I did that all in one day.

Then, it sat there for even more months because I couldn’t decide if I wanted it to be completely abstract or not. For years I have wanted to go more abstract, but those little characters keep haunting me to be part of the paintings, so they finally came in, and it wasn’t all that long before I finally finished the painting. I worked on a bunch of other stuff and did not give this one many hours all at once, which was good because a lot of it was dry before I’d come back to it. I had the freedom of laying my hand against the canvas while I painted it.

Yesterday I sewed the snake on and suddenly it was done. 36 x 36 inches. Oil, patterns, pencil and stuffed snake on canvas:

The One with the Snake by Carol Es

Just days before that, I finished this new one called “Edith,” 20 x 16 inches, oil on canvas. This is one from the very different ones I started a week or so back.

Edith by Carol Es

I am going to work on the ones that are figurative over the next few days. That will be odd, but I’m having fun.

I’m also really excited about the sketchbook exercises that Ellie gave me to do. Some great compositions are coming to light that I feel great about!

Art Giveaway!

I started a giveaway on Facebook where someone will win an original artwork by yours truly! All you have to do is “Like” my esart.com page and give me your email for my mailing list. Mind you, I send emails out infrequently. I have a seasonal newsletter, and I will send out show announcements very occasionally. I keep it simple like that.

Even if you are already on my mailing list, you still need to enter if you want to win one of these pieces. It’s easy, it’s generous, so go do it.

Turning a corner

Much is going on! I am excited to type this right now. First of all, I went to see art consultant, Ellie Blankfort the other day it went so great, I can’t even tell you! It was like psychotherapy for artists! While it was only our first meeting, I can see that she is going to help me a great deal.

She is helping me how to identify the strengths of my work, gain confidence, how to avoid the weaknesses in my work, and how to best release my energy so I can stimulate my creative process. She seemed to open the door for me to get through this weird artistic crisis I had been going through. I am very excited and am going to see her again in a couple weeks and make it a monthly thing. She gave me some great exercises to do. Trade secrets I can not tell you.

I met Ellie back in 2005 or thereabouts. She was on the art committee for the LACMA. Each year, Howard Fox and the committee do studio visits with selected artists, and after they complete their rounds, the museum makes a purchase from one of the artists. I came close, but I did not get the purchase. But I was very fortunate to have received the visit from them at all. Honored actually. That studio visit went so well, I will never forget it. Ellie was the most encouraging on the panel, so once I caught wind of what she was doing nowadays, I contacted her and we made an appointment. I am so glad I did too.

Today I even got a big rejection, but I don’t even care because I think my visit with Ellie got me to be in the right head space to deal with it. (I was turned down for the CCI Grant: Investing in Artists, which would have helped me to pay an editor and a proofreader for the book I’m working on.)

I had mentioned Shrapnel in another post not long ago and spoke about how I was going to lose friends because of some of the information I was going to be writing about their religion, but it turns out that might not be the case at all and the friendships I have will be able to endure pretty much anything. I am grateful! That one family member might still try to sue me, but I’m not worried about it.

I am now 3/4 the way through the rough draft. I can’t believe it! I have written 115,000 words so far! I think I started this almost three years ago now, but once I got the Scrivener program, everything just came SO much easier! This last year I have been able to write out most of the book. I swear, if you are working on any kind of manuscript, you MUST get this program. I am a super-endorser of the thing, as is my partner in life, MJP. He has been working on a memoir about his musical experience for even longer, and he is just about finished.

Also, I had been talking about four paintings that I started that were really unlike anything I’ve done before (or at least feels like it). Michael says the new one looks like something I’d do. You tell me:

“The Devil in Me,” 2012. Oil on canvas. 24 x 24 inches.

Devil in Me by Carol Es

This next one is still in progress, but it’s really close to being done. I think it is called, “Edith.” It’s 20 x 16 inches, oil on canvas:

Edith by Carol Es

The other two are no where near at a point where I’d post them. They look like sloppy blobs.

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Recently I saw Fiona Apple play at the Greek Theater. It was so majorly inspiring and amazing, I don’t even know how to put into words! Get her new album. It’s absolute genius! For her, the more hash, the better. (She was recently arrested for hashish in Texas.)

I also got a wonderful gift in the mail from none other than one of my most favorite artists on Earth, Neil Farber. He sent me a little gouache and ink painting on a small piece of paper because my publishers, Chance Press, gave him a copy of Scribbles in a Sandstorm. Neil made me a red cat wearing blue eye glasses. See?

Neil Farber

Something is happening

What it is, I do not know.

I have been working on six small paintings. They are painted in oil with some pencil on clay boards – like Poetic Ghetto. They all came from the quick sketches I did (I used those as the compositions), and I painted them all with the tiniest brush I own. I got super excited about one of the pieces in particular, which I titled, “The Notion of Ambiguity Must Not be Confused with that of Absurdity.” Here it is almost finished:

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I actually thought I was onto something new, but they are all still super tight. They were planned out and I used that super small brush.

Then today, without thinking, I decided to do a kind of fucked up self portrait. I did the underpainting (acrylic) with a big, wet brush on a 24 inch square canvas. It looks like a slopfest. I couldn’t bear to post it at the stage it is right now.

But then, I had all this extra color in acrylic in a few different bowls, so I mixed a couple of the bowls together and just needed to “get rid of it” (I hate wasting paint). I wound up with colors I never use and just started doing “whatever” on a few different canvases and one panel and they are all crazy. I mean like nothing I thought I could ever do. Loose and sloppy. They are very 1960s Eva Hesse. Either something is happening, or it was just a temporary lapse in left brain vacancy. They are faces and figures. I never do figures – and if I do, not like this and not in these colors.

I’ve been wanting to loosen up for years and today something turned a corner and I just painted, and it was weird. Not like anything I’ve done before. I’m either losing my marbles or I’ve hit on something very new. Whether it’s good is a whole other thing to think about.

I am not going to think about it.