Even in my darkest moments, I never give up hope. But I’m in my darkest moments now. Maybe this is the very stuff that keeps me alive. I can’t explain it really. Some folks call me a negative pessimist, but I’m not. I complain, yes. But I’m actually an optimist. I fight. And I am hopeful.
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Which is Worse?
Which is which, and which is worse? I can’t tell if I’m having super deep dysphoria, bouts of extreme depression, or stomach-turning impatience. Maybe all of the above.
Continue readingGoing Through It
I haven’t smoked in 17 days now. I’m wearing the last step of the patches, plus I’ve gone a day here and there without wearing one at all.
Continue readingDay 5 (Again)
I haven’t had a smoke in five days as of today (again). This is when it usually gets hard for me and I break down.
Continue readingThe News You’ve Missed
I put out my winter newsletter early yesterday morning…was it yesterday? Yes. It was.
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