I decided to avoid Instagram for a while.
Sounds easy, but maybe it won’t be. But after today’s therapy session, I’ve decided to do an experiment and take a one-month break from Instagram. No posting. No checking. Nothing.
I’m not super into Instagram in the first place, but I use it enough to depress myself. That’s the issue. I want to see if my mood improves in the month without it.
I keep noticing how I start feeling “not good enough” much of the time when seeing all the fantastic art out there by other artists. There’s so much of it. Most of the people I follow are excellent (which is why I follow them). They have a lot going for them. They have a lot of output. They have a lot of followers. It can make one feel small. Or lost. Yes, I start to feel lost.
Then I think, why am I feeling like this? Not good enough for what? For who? Aren’t I good enough for me?
Of course. It’s not hard to answer that, but, like I said, I get lost, and I forget. I think, for sanity’s sake, I need to back off and focus on what matters more thoroughly. I don’t want “Instagram” in my head when I’m in my studio. If that starts to happen, I’ll be fucked. I don’t think it will, I just want to take measures to make sure I’m properly focused on the Truth. I need a break. Instead, I’ll spend that time either relaxing and doing something I enjoy, or make art (which I sometimes enjoy), ha ha.
So that’s the scoop for now. I think it’s a good move. Maybe more people should take time off of social media. Maybe it would improve other people’s moods too. I think, and hope, it will bring me back to the present.