Even in my darkest moments, I never give up hope. But I’m in my darkest moments now. Maybe this is the very stuff that keeps me alive. I can’t explain it really. Some folks call me a negative pessimist, but I’m not. I complain, yes. But I’m actually an optimist. I fight. And I am hopeful.
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Which is Worse?
Which is which, and which is worse? I can’t tell if I’m having super deep dysphoria, bouts of extreme depression, or stomach-turning impatience. Maybe all of the above.
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I haven’t smoked in 17 days now. I’m wearing the last step of the patches, plus I’ve gone a day here and there without wearing one at all.
Continue readingStuff About Art
Perhaps I should mention again that my virtual show at Craig Krull Gallery, All’s Well in the High Desert, has been up since the 7th.
Continue readingImpossible Regret
You can’t regret what you can’t control. It’s impossible.
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